Chicken Mama

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To the listener choosing to receive these sounds, thank you. To Mama, Baba, Faruk, and the Earth, to the people who have held my visions as a part of their own. To the hearts behind each name in the chicken, thank you for putting your faith (and money) into this music when that vision was still blurry. Art is seldom created alone, but is often led by a solitary vision. Those who supported this creation are all artists who sacrificed time they could have spent on their own projects to work on mine; for this I am ineffably grateful. To the musicians who played, often on short notice and as a gift, thank you. In particular, to Joe Kaplow for assisting with production decisions, and especially for the arrangement of Trouble. Patrick Brede, thank you for honoring the trust it takes to put things down on record, and for making it fun. Ian and Jason, your faith in my music has helped me see the signs in times of doubt. Drew Felhman, your artful woodblock of the Chicken Mama is impossibly perfect. Peter and Donna Thomas, thank you for the instruction and use of your letterpress for the printing of my album covers. To the Fabrica, for the use of your sewing machines and for providing a community space for the textile arts.

To all my dearest friends, thank you for your support during the at times deeply internal process of sharing my voice. To the Church House homies in the summer of 2016, thank you for letting us turn your living room into a studio for two days and making it a BLAST. Damla and Amelia, you helped write this record through your persistent and loving encouragement, and reminding me of songs that might have otherwise slipped through the cracks. Marya, Mathew, and Guru Dave, thank you for sitting down with me that afternoon in May and helping me sort through these thoughts and songs at the eensy dawn.

Most of these songs were written in 2016 and recorded in 2017, though some were recorded in 2016, written years earlier, or days before the final recording sessions last June. To me, this album is a mosaic of disparate lost selves, and represents coming home with the lightness that allows. My prayer is that the relief and hope these songs have given me can be experienced by you so that your vision, love, and capacity for togetherness may grow clear and bright.

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released July 31, 2017

All songs written by Kasia Kugay

Featuring:
Joe Kaplow ~ guitars (2,4,10,12), banjo (8), harmony vocals (2,4,10)
Tyden Binsted ~ double bass (1,2,9), electric bass (4,12)
Alex Bice ~ percussion and drums (2,4)
Elijah McCullor ~ violin (1,9)
Tyler Larson ~ lead guitar (12), electric bass and mandolin (10)
Jeff Wilson ~ drums (10,12)
Jeff Kissell ~ double bass (7,8)
Kai Killion ~ whistle (7)
Balder ten Cate ~ accordion (3)
Bobcat Rob Armenti ~ harmony vocal (10)

Recorded and mixed by Patrick Brede in Santa Cruz, California

Additional recordings by:
Jason Hatfield at the Church House (7,8, harmony vox on 1,9,12)
Ian Thornburgh at Outlaw Fringe Sound (10,11)
Students at Expression College in Oakland and San Jose (1,9,12)

Mastered by Justin Weis at Trakworx, South San Francisco

Cover art by Drew Fehlman
Graphic design by Iris Chi

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Chicken Mama is Kasia Kugay, born and raised in San Francisco by Polish and Turkish parents. Her original folk songs echo her inspirations of traditional American and Black Sea music, jazz, and lyrical themes of land and love. Listeners have praised her velvety tone of voice, rhythmic guitar work, clawhammer banjo, and clever lyricism. ... more

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Track Name: Come and See (How She Spins)
Come and see the blinking light, growing as a wind is flight
Darkness marks a hidden land, where truth and word go hand in hand

Never could we know how she spins
Weaving at the core of what begins
And when it does, day breaks her loose

Come and hear the great hello, listen as it gently rows
Through the sea of all our airs, listen past the looks and stares

Never could we know how she spins
Weaving at the core of what begins
And when it does, day breaks her loose

Come and dance the night to rest, beating through these leaps and steps
Candle that so quickly burns -- oh, the sight that darkness earns

Never could we know how she spins
Weaving at the core of what begins
And when it does, day breaks her loose
Track Name: Broken
Ooh, I am broken, I am broken
Ooh, I am broken, I am broken
And I don’t wanna be fixed again

Why does a bird fall down from a tree, tryin’ a fly before she gets the speed
Oh, there’s nothin’ wrong with tryin’, we all gotta fall before we get to flyin’
Sometimes we wanna look pretty…

Ooh, I am broken, I am broken
Ooh, I am broken, I am broken
And I don’t wanna be fixed again

How does a bird know when she’s ready to spread her wings and keep ‘em steady
Is there a secret sign or a clue the time is right and her vision is true
Sometimes it doesn’t look pretty…

Ooh, I am broken, I am broken
Ooh, I am broken, I am broken
And I don’t wanna be fixed again

Ooh, I am broken, I am broken
Ooh, I am broken, I am broken
And I don’t wanna be fixed again

I just wanna be what I am
Track Name: Something Better
This train is leavin’, leavin’ for good
The station I’ve been in has misunderstood
All of the flowers, served with a kiss
That you smelled deeply, sir, one day you’ll miss

And I won’t be waitin’, ‘cause the river is runnin’
And I found something better inside of myself

The season is changin’, I’ve been so cold
Tight as you held me, when feelings grow old
They hide in the corners, hide from the love
Hide with a fear from all we’ve dreamed of

Well I won’t be waitin’, ‘cause the river is runnin’
And I found something better inside of myself

You can write letters, seal them with blood
All of my tears have mixed in the mud
There are no words, nor enough truth
To burn through the madness you lost with your youth

Well I won’t be waitin’, ‘cause the river is runnin’
And I found something better inside of myself

No, I won’t be waitin’, ‘cause the river is runnin’
And I found something better inside of myself

Yes, I found something better inside of myself
Track Name: Lookin' at a Dog
Oooh, oooh
Oooh, oooh

I want a smile, give me a smile
Give me a smile, I haven’t seen one in a while
This boat starts to think, if I only had a drink
All the salt in the water, whoa

Oh, I want to see in a better light
But all I have is what I know…

I want the love, give me the love
Give me the love, please don’t hang it high above
Through the curtain I can see you want to rescue me
I’m not the one stuck in the branches of a tree

Oh, I want to feel that it will be right
Through the ups and downs and the lows…

Oooh, oooh
Oooh, oooh

I want some peace, just a piece of the peace
Give me some peace, I’ll be standing on my feet
Show me your stars, turn out the lights
The city can go without for a night

Mama told me life doesn’t come easy
Guess I better find some light in the night
Don’t have any monsters under my bed, the demons live in my head
Hey, yeah…
I’ll tell you somethin’ about feelin’ alone
All of those somethin’s live in your dome

Lookin’ at a dog, lookin’ at a dog
Lookin’ at a dog, and he’s lookin’ at me...
Track Name: Backroads
We’re takin’ backroads, gonna get there slowly
When the day comes, we’ll be ready
You’re gonna wish you were here
If you’re not here yet

Come on my love, come into the question with me
We’re here and it makes no sense if we’re not here for each other
All the snails come out in the rain
Birds are silent from the car
Smells go past, we can’t snap their photographs
Nor a shooting star
We’re here and it makes no sense if we’re not here for each other

You’re gonna wish you were here
If you’re not here yet

Slow down my love, slow into this tension with me
We’re here and it makes no sense if we’re not here for each other
Ways a mountain speaks to future lovers:
Little wild blueberries and silent mother
Comin’ down on the dark moon
Almost fell twice but instead I swooned
We’re here and it makes no sense if we’re not here for each other

You’re gonna wish you were here
If you’re not here yet
Track Name: Different Ways (of the Nightingale and Rose)
Oh, there’s no getting close to me when I’m in this state
I came into the battle worn and know it as my fate
Some may fight to win, and well if with a cause
Where I’m from, we fight to love, no sense to hedge the loss

I sing at night, you bloom in the day
We are two different creatures, walkin’ too different ways

I’ve been told it’s broken, this beating in my chest
All I saw were omens, and I’m ‘fraid I failed the test
What’s the point in lookin’ up, when it looks we’re goin’ down?
All I know is what we’ve sown, and it’s barren in the ground

I sing at night, you bloom in the day
We are two different creatures, walkin’ too different ways

I sing at night, you bloom in the day
We are two different creatures, walkin’ two…
Too…
Too…
Too…
Too…
Different Ways
Track Name: Sacred Dangers
Do you believe in sacred dangers, would you open your heart to anyone?
What is the secret that you keep behind your knitted brows and your crossed arms?
Let’s go a few inches lower and deeper, who is the keeper of your appetite?
Is there a fear there of being taken? If you’re askin’ me, well, I just might

Hey, hey
Hey, yeah…

If you had wings and lots of money, where would you go, and what would you do?
Does it hurt to even think about it, isn’t it painful when we’re not getting through?
What is the difference between having and wanting everything we can fit inside?
Is there a fear there of being taken, once again from the inside?

Hey, hey
Hey, yeah…

Well I don’t know for sure about fairies and unicorns, but I’ve hung around with some big tall trees
And I never get answers without asking questions, so I’m wondering what you’ve got up your sleeve

Hey, hey
Hey, yeah...
Track Name: Coyote Eyes
Wah oh, wah oh, wah oh, wah oh

I went down to the hidden grove, where it is nobody knows, no
What I found was a hidden tree, with a hole that held me within its core
Little stairs inside that safe, up and down I chose my game, and I continue
Center folded into hands, so when we touch I understand what continues
Up a branch into coyote eyes, there I am in two coyote eyes

Wah oh, wah oh, wah oh, wah oh

Then night falls, as all things do
The path goes forward, our walk is true
Feet on sand and hand in yours
It must be late, but we must explore
What would i find behind those stars?
A chest of brambles and a clear heart
And on these rocks, made of moon
I weave new light upon ancient loom
Well it’s been found this weave is all
For what’s been woven will fall
So don’t go frozen, my fiery friend
Lift the sky with me again

Wah oh, wah oh, wah oh, wah oh
Track Name: It Takes Nothing
I forgot that I was the water, flowin’ to the ocean blue
Tried to tame the fury, didn’t break a rock ‘Til that old sand asked me to

Cozy would it be to stay in one piece
Closing the whispers that grow underneath
I am a river coming home to you
Silver in the night, you greet me

All my pieces enter you, everything scatters, nothing is lost
Even those that wash away -- they’re all inside, it takes nothing

It takes nothing, it takes nothing
It takes nothing, it takes nothing
To be big enough for all the salt in the ocean

Ooh, on the way I may linger in a marsh
Clearing out what’s no longer needed
To give more of me to you
More of me to you, wah uh oh

Who will I be without riverbanks
Walls to keep the fury?
How will I move, moving boundary
What creatures live in my depth now?

I forgot that I was the water, flowin’ to the ocean blue

It takes nothing, it takes nothing
It takes nothing, it takes nothing
To be big enough for all the salt in the ocean
Track Name: Still Runs the River
Dappled morning light, no more starshine
Now the city’s here and we’ve all gone blind
There were redwood trees where we walk upon
Now there’s concrete and some tended lawns

Still runs the river, still runs the river
Still runs the river, still runs the river

How did people live when the woods were here
Moving with the changes ran the water clear
Falling down the side of this mountain
‘Long with ones we fear now: wolf, bear, and lion

Still runs the river, still runs the river
Still runs the river, still runs the river

Don’t wanna be afraid of what we create
A body’s gotta learn how to stop and wait
When the water fills us with her raging tide
We can run or swim, oh you cannot hide

Still runs the river, still runs the river
Still runs the river, still runs the river
Track Name: Tally
Curled up on the bed, nowhere to shake your head
Pressed up against the wall and you’re cryin’
How could you leave the shards painted with your own blood
Scattered across the floor, now?

Tally, Tally
Tally, what’s the score, now?

Curled up in the hamper, one place to find an answer
Empty but tight, oh, you’re tryin’
Where does the leaving stop, packed up and on the ladder?
Who is the boss, what’s the chore, now?

Tally, Tally
Tally, what’s the score, now?

Tally is a girl once I knew
We still write each other letters
Why all the suspicion, you ask of me
I’m just piecing it all together

Tally, Tally
Tally, what’s the score, now?
Track Name: Trouble
You say I’m trouble babe, but I know what’s troublin’ you
You were gone for so long and don’t know what to do
but things don’t really change here, they just move along
maybe you’ll feel better when I’m done with this song

See there’s a place we like to call the sky, where the sun resides
he sheds light on everything we do, he can burn through our lies
he can give you anything, anytime you want
he can change the shape of your universe
maybe if you’re kinder, the world will be kinder
shut your eyes, take a breath, and tell me what you see
shut your eyes, take a breath, and tell me what you need

You say I’m trouble babe, but I know what’s troublin you
there are things you’ve thought about that you don’t know how to do
but why we tryin’ to name things? everything’s the same thing
maybe if I fly to you, you’ll have flown to me
there’s a tale I’m told that wraps and molds and keeps us where we’re from
sometimes we need to shed it off to have a little fun
maybe if you’re kinder, the world will be kinder
shut your eyes, take a breath, and tell me what you see
shut your eyes, take a breath, and tell me what you need

You say I’m trouble babe, but I know what’s troublin you
You were gone for so long and don’t know what to do
but things don’t really change here, they just move along
maybe you’ll feel better when I’m done with this song
maybe you’ll feel better when I’m done with this song
maybe you’ll feel better when I’m done with this song
Track Name: Let it Rest
The window was left open too long, too long, and I
can’t rest -- so cold, your warmth, your warmth so close
Still I can’t close in enough

I’m gonna let it rest, gonna let it rest
I’m gonna let it rest, gonna let it rest

The circles we paint in the sky blink in the night
Who needs them, and how does a man build a home with a song?
Who builds him, and how does a bird soar down?

I’m gonna let it rest, gonna let it rest
I’m gonna let it rest, gonna let it rest

I’m gonna let it rest (4x)
Track Name: Easy Like a River
Easy like a river down a mountainside
Though to rocks and boulders I subside
I am learning to dance in the great divide, the great divide

Rocks in the river are my friend
I keep them cool in summer and they teach me to bend
There is no beginning and there is no end, there is no end
Track Name: Broken (bonus)
Ooh, I am broken, I am broken
Ooh, I am broken, I am broken
And I don’t wanna be fixed again

Why does a bird fall down from a tree, tryin’ a fly before she gets the speed
Oh, there’s nothin’ wrong with tryin’, we all gotta fall before we get to flyin’
Sometimes we wanna look pretty…

Ooh, I am broken, I am broken
Ooh, I am broken, I am broken
And I don’t wanna be fixed again

How does a bird know when she’s ready to spread her wings and keep ‘em steady
Is there a secret sign or a clue the time is right and her vision is true
Sometimes it doesn’t look pretty…

Ooh, I am broken, I am broken
Ooh, I am broken, I am broken
And I don’t wanna be fixed again

Ooh, I am broken, I am broken
Ooh, I am broken, I am broken
And I don’t wanna be fixed again

I just wanna be what I am